…and this is where it gets real. I need to talk about my feelings somewhere. I need to expose my dirty laundry and get to the nitty-gritty of who I am, and what I’ve become over the years. I’ve actually become a pretty okay person. I believe.
I’ve been through a lot in my life, and I feel like my experiences could be of service to the world at large, so here I am, sharing. Sharing is caring after all. I’m not quite sure where to start. I’ve shared so much of myself across the internet, perhaps I’ll just link to some of those blogs, and video.. or video. I did one video talking about my early childhood, and adolescence where I was feral, and malnourished, to becoming an ungrateful, willful brat.
I also need to talk about my grooming and sexual abuse. My dysfunctional family of addicts and the mentally unstable. My need for male attention, being a daddy’s girl. My promiscuity, and subsequent sexual escapades that followed up until my 18th year where I met my first husband. I need to talk about my children and the struggles after they were born. My exodus, and forays into pornography, and the internet reality. My beliefs in God, Extra Terrestrials, UFO’s, Faeries, and other spiritual, elemental, and ethereal beings.
All I know is there are a lot of things I need to get off my chest. If one of my stories can help one person, then it would be worth sharing. I’m a super morbidly obese woman, living in las vegas, Nevada, with two teenage children. I’m an ex-porn actress and web model and now I do mukbangs on YouTube, as well as live shows most of the week on YouNow. I’m in a complicated friend-relationship with a sweet man who lives way too far away from me, and I’m hoping that we can come together really soon. I’m practically living for that day. My children are living with their grandmother in Louisiana, and I’m also living for the day I can go visit them and give them great big hugs.